Life, Death, and Everything In Between: Embracing Change in the Season of Endings

The recent weeks have served as a strong reminder of how fleeting life can be. One moment we are present, and the next—bam—we are not. Death. DEATH. death. It has been all around me, impossible to ignore and deeply emotional. They say that parting is bittersweet, but sometimes it feels more like a blow to the stomach. I have taken a step back from my usual Instagram activity as The Fiery Owl 413 to concentrate on my personal growth. The energies surrounding me have been intense, urging me to process and contemplate what is happening within and around me. Now, I believe it is time to address these experiences—to share my journey and how I am navigating through it. Perhaps these reflections will offer understanding or a fresh perspective to someone else confronting their own struggles. I often tend to encounter things weeks before others do, so it is possible that you are currently facing, or will soon face, many of the themes I am about to discuss.

Originally, I had planned for this to be a brief and sweet post, but it evolved into something much more profound. I sense a collective shift occurring—a transformative energy reaching individuals in various stages of life. Many of you may find resonance in what I am about to convey. My spirit guides have been encouraging me to share the insights I have been receiving over the past few weeks. Therefore, consider this both a psychic reading and a blog filled with wisdom. 😉 You're welcome. I may jump around a bit as I share my reflections on death—both physical and metaphorical—and recent events in my life. If you are going through a similar experience, I hope these words strike a chord.

Here is the truth: I am human, just like you. Shocker! We all have unique life purposes and varying degrees of spiritual abilities. Our lessons may differ and manifest in distinct ways, but at the core, we share the same fundamental lesson. I have my own spiritual gifts to nurture and lessons to master, including learning to accept and develop my spiritual gifts and being open to death or endings. Letting go and detachment have been significant lessons for me in this lifetime, ones that I have struggled with, but have made considerable progress on over the past decade. It hasn't been easy due to conditioned beliefs, but it's easier for me now than it was a decade ago.

I caught myself in these past few weeks though having some reservations still thinking of my future and "what others will think." I had to do some work there. I thought "man, I thought I had moved on from that." But, I was triggered by my twin flame there. I saw something that was posted and it just had me react in a way that was kinda new. It had me doubting everything! Myself. My path. My purpose. My place in this world. My ego often kept me shielded, preventing me from embracing my true power and wisdom. I felt it was trying to do the same again. Nonetheless, life has a way of dismantling barriers. Things eventually become clear again, but we must roll through the punches. We must continue moving through these emotions and what's happening around us and have faith that things will move forward for the better. The Universe likes to throw these curve balls to test us and our faith in what we want and where we want to go in our life. Will we waver and give up or will we continue forward toward the goals we have been desiring. Are you willing to make the sacrifices needed and let go of something or someone that has held you back from your goals? Every fall through, rejection, or loss is a redirection to a better path or option better suited for you.

At some point in life, amidst the shattered fragments, we begin to see the pieces and comprehend them. We start to perceive how these pieces interconnect or how change is necessary to form a new, beautiful mosaic or artwork altogether. The life we knew prior to this transformative moment becomes something entirely different, yet liberating and empowering. It is during these darkest moments that we unearth our authentic selves and realize our potential. We uncover our inner light and achieve inner harmony. We learn to embrace all energies within us. Dark nights of the soul are crucial stages in our evolutionary journey. It is the ideal time for shadow work. These are periods of significant transformation for you. Fortunately, they are not permanent. Thank goodness! 😅 Confront your emotions and recognize how the triggers around you are meant to impart lessons. There is a necessity to let go and allow certain things to come to an end. To die. As a medium, I interact with death on a daily basis. I aid souls in transitioning, serve as a link between the living and the departed, and guide individuals through metaphorical deaths and rebirths. However, to undertake this work, I must also live through these experiences firsthand. It is through my personal journey—through the pain, the release, the transformation—that I have acquired the wisdom to assist others.

As I mentioned, this wasn’t meant to be more than an IG post, but it’s turned into something greater—something my spirit guides have urged me to write. They’ve been clear: my experiences and thoughts could be a source of inspiration for someone out there who needs it. I am not perfect, and that is perfectly fine. Dealing with negative thoughts is a common struggle that many people face. This journey may be challenging, but it is a shared experience. I have often felt misunderstood and isolated in my thoughts, feelings, and even spiritual beliefs and abilities. I have been transparent about my mental health issues and battles with depression. Confronting these challenges has revealed how they are deeply connected to unresolved emotional wounds that we often bury to avoid pain, masking them with unhealthy coping mechanisms. Additionally, my mental well-being was influenced by my spiritual gifts and the negative energies/entities/attachements that I would inadvertently attract. I had limited knowledge of the spiritual realm and didn't fully comprehend my abilities until my early thirties, after three decades of suffering in fear, anger, sadness, frustration, loneliness, and darkness. Despite this, I lacked the skills to navigate these intense emotions effectively. Emotional regulation was definitely missing during my childhood. That's been something else I've been having to work on. It's difficult to break old habits, and my mindset has been a constant challenge. This fall is turning out to be particularly challenging for me, even more so than previous years that I can recall. I'm sharing this not to seek sympathy - I'm doing fine - but to reassure anyone who may need it: you are not alone. We are all in this together, navigating through these ups and downs, and drawing strength from our shared vulnerabilities. Change can be chaotic, but it's also where the real magic unfolds.

Let’s start by mentioning that as of October 23, we entered Scorpio season. We stay in Scorpio until November 21.  Scorpio, the season of transformation, shadows, and introspection, ruled by Mars and Pluto—the planets of endings and rebirth. When death arrives during this time, it feels almost scripted, as if the universe is leaning into Scorpio’s themes with a cosmic wink. For those who appreciate irony, it’s like Scorpio season arrives with its own punchline: “Life is cyclical, endings are inevitable, and there’s no better time to contemplate it than now.” But, Scorpio isn’t all about finality; it’s about transformation, shedding skins to reveal what lies beneath. It’s a reminder that death, in its essence, gives way to life. In those darkest spaces, there’s often a wry beauty waiting to be discovered.

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You may find yourself in Scorpio season and into Winter time having certain difficult lessons come up for you. We had the new moon in Scorpio on November 1. They are meant to teach you certain things needing reflection and letting go of in order to achieve the happiness, peace, love, etc you desire. Perhaps the environtment or people or places surrounding you are not conductive to this growth and expansion you want. Maybe they're not the source of this life you seek. Perhaps the dream life you wanted for yourself has been ruptured by some ending and feel that perhaps you will never have it again or at all. But, let this go and trust that what is meant for you will be in time. Trust that things are moving out of your life to bring something better, the things you desire. It may not be what you envisioned but it doesn't mean that you won't be happy with what your spirit team has in store for you.

The weight of connecting and working with The Dead is heavy as the veil thins around Halloween time, again, Scorpio season! For sensitive folks as myself, this adds a layer to the normal energy we feel and absorb. I have learned ways to protect my energy, however, it's a challenge and an ongoing process for me. I deal with heavy energy at the hospital I work at alone. Dealing with the sick and dying is hard especially for someone like me, a healer and empath and channeler. IYKYK. The lower vibe the energies, the heavier it is for someone with a higher vibe. The dark always feed on the light. Like moths to the flame. But, it's also a challenge keeping your emotions in check. The human-ness wants to come out. I understand this is all about balance, the balancing of empathy and detachment.

This year, and particularly in recent weeks, I have observed a widespread struggle among many people when it comes to grappling with the concept of death. It is evident that this topic evokes fear in numerous individuals. While death is an inevitable part of the human experience, causing apprehension and reluctance in discussions for some, others seem to approach it with unease. This phenomenon led me to ponder the reasons behind this prevalent fear and what lessons I could draw from it.

It became apparent to me that I am meant to engage in conversations about death and share my personal experiences to potentially aid others on their own journeys. I have come to realize that my struggles are not unique but rather shared in some capacity by those I encounter. Admittedly, I find it challenging when I hear people discussing death solely from a human perspective driven by ego, witnessing the fear in their reactions and their avoidance of the topic. Working in a hospital exposes me to these sentiments on a daily basis, as I witness patients grappling with accepting their fate and families faced with making crucial life-or-death decisions for their loved ones. Reflecting on my own past, I acknowledge that I, too, once viewed death in a similar manner. It took my own transformative experience to comprehend death from a different angle, fostering a sense of compassion towards others. I have come to understand that death signifies a transition of the soul to another state rather than a definitive end. While the physical presence of a departed loved one cannot be replaced, their essence remains with us in a profound way. Witnessing their struggles may be emotionally taxing, yet it underscores the enduring connection that transcends physical boundaries.

Human beings grapple with death due to various factors such as illusions, societal conditioning, cultural beliefs, and the ego. Our ego is the outer shell we form to protect our innermost vulnerable and authentic self. It's our human experiences we endure from the moment we are born that creates our ego in order to protect our sensitive and pure soul self. Our avatars if you will. We fear death for various reasons, but the most common I've heard and seen is the lack of trust or faith in the unknown and a Higher Power. I definitley went through this phase of questioning beliefs, my own and others out there. I had my own existential crisis. I wanted nothing to do with religion and spirituality. The words religion and spirituality scathed me. I didn't even want to speak of them. The whole concept. I was very angry and, what I would understand later, it triggered my abandonment and rejection wounds. We, as humans, fear what we don't know or understand. We feel abandoned by the Higher Power because of the struggles we’ve had in life. We feel it’s unfairness. While some profess a strong belief in their Higher Power and attend religious services regularly, when faced with their own mortality or that of a loved one, they resist the idea of death or struggle to make decisions regarding end-of-life care. Despite the poor quality of life, they cling on. Do you find you do that? Or have done that? I know I used to.

It's been in my experience working in healthcare at a hospital that I've seen so many situations. Hearing stories of patients not having a next of kin or that the next of kin has been estranged from the patient, but now here they are having to accept or deny responsibility for the patient. A patient doesn't have to be dead, but has to be deemed, by psychiatrist or psychologist, as incompetent to make medical decisions, for them to have to reach out for next of kin. Many don't know about all this because they haven't thought that far down the road. They’ve never wanted to think it would happen to them. Or they feel that they are “manifesting” it to happen so they don’t speak about it. But, the reality is that it will happen, we just don't know when we will be in this situation. Prepare! Best case scenario, PREPARE!!! Have all legal documents done and let someone you trust know where they will be found. Hospitals will ask for this document. They don't care if you've been living together for 35 years, if its not legal marriage or a legal HCS (Healthcare Surrogacy) form or POA (Power of Attorney) form, they will not discuss anything with you about the patient. So, many need to know their rights and how the legal system works. And, I'm talking in the United States. Not sure about other countries. But, even still, talk about death. I've seen families fighting over decision making too. I wish I can write a book on all the stories I've heard over the years of my career.

I have learned to openly talk to loved ones who will be my next of kin if I were to become incapacitated or succumb to death about my wishes. It's super important to do so. Plan for your imminent demise before it's too late and you could lay there in a hospital bed unable to make decisions for yourself. Will you be ok with life support? Will you be ok eating from a feeding tube? Will you be ok with not being able to move or walk? Will you be ok with someone else caring for you and wearing diapers? Will you want all measures to be done to keep you alive even when you have no quality of life? Are you ok with living the rest of your life in a wheelchair or dependent on someone else? Will you want to be left in a bed and develop complications like pneumonia, pressure wounds, and contractures of your extremities? The truth is, we don't know when or how death will come for us. We can hope and pray we die peacefully in our sleep with no pain and suffering or knowing. That's the ultimate dream right? All that is for certain is that we do die.

The first week of November has been challenging for me for the past nine years. It marks the anniversary of one of the greatest losses of my life, one of the deepest loves I’ve known thus far, whom I’ve spoken about before. Every year, memories replay: the moment I learned he was going into hospice, each day leading to his passing, and the overwhelming grief that followed. The journey of healing my heart has been a long, winding road. At one time, this pain consumed me entirely, pulling me down a dark rabbit hole. Yet, it was also the catalyst that led me to discover my light and life purpose. Without darkness, there’s no light—a truth I began to understand then and fully accept later on down the road.

Amidst the painful anniversary, I bid farewell to my closest companion who was starting a new chapter by relocating to a different city and state. Although not as distant as her previous overseas residence or my own cross-country move years ago, the eight-hour drive makes impromptu visits challenging. While our friendship evolves, I mourn the changing dynamics while also rejoicing in her fresh start. I sense a part of myself undergoing a transformation, shedding old layers and embracing a higher state of being. The concept of "letting go" resonated strongly during this period. Emotions ran high, leading me to seek solace in a cleansing ritual performed by a shaman friend the night before my friend's departure from Florida. Engaging in a cacao ceremony in tribute to my ancestors and in anticipation of new beginnings, I felt my heart chakra opening up, aiding in processing grief and fostering healing. Just in time for more news on the way!

As if this wasn’t enough, I received news that two family members had passed in this first week of November as well, one from each side of my family. Literal death in Scorpio season—ironic, almost comical if you’ve got a dark sense of humor. I was thinking initially, “great! Of course this is happening right now!” I felt a bit of “when it rains it pours!” One loss I anticipated, as she was taken off life support the day after I found out. However, the news was still a shock that she was even in this predicament — she was young and healthy for all I knew. She was so full of life, sharing her humor and joy online just days before. I didn’t see her often, as we lived on opposite sides of the country, but her warmth and laughter left an impression. I’ll miss her light! But, she is at peace and not suffering anymore.

Only hours later, I learned that my aunt on my dad’s side had also passed. I found out through a text from my mom, who simply asked if I knew that my aunt [insert name here] died. At first, I thought it was a mistake, that she was referring to the cousin who had just passed. But, after re-reading the text multiple times, I realized it could be my dad’s sister. I text my mom, “my dad’s sister?” She said, “yes.” There I am sitting in front of the computer at work in the middle of documenting a therapy session and I was surprised. My mom, divorced from my dad for over 20 years, learned this news through the widow of one of his brothers, one of the few family members my mom remained close to. The news was unexpected and a deep sadness settled in, especially for my dad. I called as soon as I got off work to check if he had heard yet. He had. Probably about the same time I received the news that day.

When I got home that day, I just sat and let myself reflect. I used to allow these emotions overwhelm me in the most unhealthy ways. I used to drown my sorrows a lot. I used to be angry and fall into bad depression. But, not this time, not anymore. Even as a medium, someone who communes with The Dead, these last few weeks have weighed heavily on me. I felt a flood of emotions to process. I resisted the pull toward old patterns in dealing with grief, instead turning to shadow work, piecing together the why’s and what’s of these experiences. At one point, I caught myself thinking, “Why is all this happening to me?” But I leaned into the perspective I’ve been cultivating over the years: “What is this meant to show or teach me?” Patterns, lessons—they always reveal themselves in the timing and circumstances of life events.

It’s times like these where you sit and think about mortality. Your own and the ones around you. Two family members from each side, passing in such close proximity and in similar fashion; in addition, two patients I’d worked with recently had also passed. Though death is something I often encounter at work, it hits differently when it’s family. It’s a reminder of the reality of aging parents and family members, the fragility of life and how quickly life changes. Neither of my relatives was what most would consider “old” or what society deems as “the age to die” —one was only 51, and my aunt likely in her late 60s or early 70s. My aunt was a few years older than my dad. Their passing was a stark reminder of the toll of illness, a poignant reminder of the importance of self-care and of life’s preciousness. Be mindful of your body and its health. Get regular check ups. Don't make excuses. Don't put it off. Don't say "it'll go away." Don't let not having money or insurance get in the way. Don't let not having time or being too busy, be the answer. Put yourself first.

Following the recent loss of two family members, one from each side of my family, I have been contemplating deeply on the intergenerational connections. The passing of these individuals has evoked a strong sense of ancestral presence within me, as if the voices of my maternal and paternal ancestors are converging through the shared experiences of grief and remembrance. It feels like the narratives, wisdom, and emotions of past generations are flowing through these losses, building a bridge between the past, present, and future.

During moments of grief, I am reflecting on the legacies that have been handed down through the generations, acknowledging the ties that bind me to my forebears and how their lives continue to impact mine. Through the lens of loss, I am reminded of the resilience, fortitude, and love that have been passed on by those who preceded me, motivating me to honor their legacy by living purposefully and gratefully.

As I navigate this period of mourning and introspection, I am struck by the enduring strength of familial bonds that surpass time and space. The loss of these two family members has underscored the interconnectedness of all living beings, illustrating how our lives are intertwined with those who came before us and those who will follow. In this time of collective grief, I find comfort in knowing that the love and wisdom of my ancestors persist in guiding and uplifting me, weaving a tapestry of resilience and strength that spans generations.

We recently observed Dia De Los Muertos, a time when ancestral energies are particularly potent, fostering a connection to one's roots. This celebration, which we call Dia De Los Muertos, is a cherished Mexican tradition that is part of my heritage. Day of the Dead is not solely for the departed; it serves as a reminder for the living to continue their journey in honor of their loved ones who have passed. Life should not come to a halt when they depart. The deaths in my family occurred around this time of year. I believe they were certainly guided by our ancestors in their final days and moments of their earthly existence. They transitioned back to their spiritual form and returned home.

Remember this is all end of October, beginning of November that I am having all of these revelations and energies impacting me. It was a lot coming at me. Hence, me not having energy to give online doing my usual collective readings. I needed me. I hope other readers and spiritual workers do the same from time to time. Never put money and notoreity before yourself! Balance. I like that meme I've seen in the past that says, "many focus on ascension, but haven't mastered grounding." Master grounding! Implement it. 1:11 on the clock as I said that. Have you been seeing the 111 or 1111? Pay attention to your self care needs. I retreat into nature for grounding when I feel oversaturated with heavy, dark energies. The other day I retreated to my favorite little place in nature. I needed a good cleanse and healing session surrounded by my favorite tree spirits and animal spirits. Things have been way too overwhelming and it had been a while since I made it out there. In October, a major hurricane affected central Florida. I live in this area that Hurricane Milton ransacked. It was one of the scariest sounding ones I've ever been in. Luckily, my family and our homes were safe and with minimal to no damage. We didn’t even lose power. My prayers must have helped. There were others around our neighborhood though with damage. Many areas were flooded, without power for days and weeks, and we had some roads closed due to not just flooding and debris, but huge sinkholes!

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This experience in nature made me reflect in awe. It made me a bit sad to see the damage done by the hurricane. But, at the same time, it showed the theme I've been talking about here: death and rebirth. Mother Nature disrupts not only human lives, but the lives of these other living things -- trees and animals. There's a loss of trees and animals, but it's all part of the cycle. Some have to die in order for new growth to happen.

There seems to be a significant transformative energy in the air, as if the universe is urging us to release what no longer serves. This week’s theme may be about accepting endings and closures as necessary steps toward rebirth. Each death—whether it’s a phase, an idea, or an emotional attachment—creates space for new, vibrant energy to enter. This feels like a powerful moment for shedding old skins and preparing for a new chapter.

As I stood amidst the aftermath of the hurricane, I couldn't help but marvel at the intricate dance of destruction and creation that unfolded before me. The fallen trees and displaced animals painted a poignant picture of the fragility of life and the resilience of nature. It was a stark reminder that in the grand scheme of things, we are mere spectators in the eternal cycle of birth and death.

Witnessing the devastation left in the wake of the storm, I felt a mix of emotions wash over me. There was sorrow for the loss of life and destruction of habitats, but also a sense of hope and renewal as new shoots peeked through the debris-covered ground. It was a poignant reminder that even in the darkest of times, there is always a glimmer of light, a promise of new beginnings.

Truth is: We were born to die. We are dying the minute we are born. We should not form attachments to things, people, or places in this world. Instead, we should embrace and savor each moment of life. Utilize our time wisely by doing good, showing kindness, and contributing to the improvement of our planet and the Universe. Focus on the positives rather than allowing the negatives to overshadow them. Consider the legacy you wish to leave behind and how you want to be remembered. Death is a natural part of life that should not be feared or fixated upon. Embrace the idea that when one's time ends, it paves the way for new beginnings. Life is constantly progressing and evolving, and we must adapt accordingly. Embrace change and have the courage to move forward, rather than staying stagnant or caught in a cycle. Flow with the changing currents of life. Don't get swept up in it! Live a life that makes you happy despite what others think or say. Follow your purpose.