Forgiveness: A Road to Freedom...and Peace.

I was pulling tarot cards for my collective reads that I post daily on my IG page, but I decided to pull a topic for a blog post, too. The card was the 3 of Swords reversed with The Empress at the bottom of the deck. I immediately heard ”forgiveness.” Forgiveness…It’s such a difficult act to achieve, isn’t it? Tyler Perry stated, “It's not an easy journey, to get to a place where you forgive people. But it is such a powerful place, because it frees you.” It’s so true. I harbored a lot of anger or resentments toward people that did me wrong. That disappointed me. That betrayed me. And, when I started my healing process, this part—forgiveness— was a savior. It liberated me in the most amazing way. I felt like the weight was lifted off my shoulders and could breathe again. However, the path to that place was difficult and grueling at times (I am only human, after all). Forgiveness is a necessary evil, for sure.

The hardest part to forgive are those betrayals. Those that hurt you. The bitterness. The anger. The resentment. The pain. The sadness. The loss. It’s so hard to forgive that. Especially when it’s family members. People you thought would never do something like that. We often expect an apology from those that hurt us. We walk around carrying this load waiting for that apology. Months go by, years…the weight of these burdens just starts festering underneath the surface, in our hearts, and it grows and grows. It starts manifesting in physical symptoms. The feeling of heaviness on the chest. Chest pains. Anxiety. Panic attacks. Shortness of breath or difficulty breathing. Chest tightness. Feeling suffocated. High blood pressure. Irritability or shorter fuse than normal. Little things annoy or trigger you. Hearing others stories of betrayal or a similar situation sets you off. Reading something that reminds you of that person sets you off. Those are triggers. Know your triggers. Understand the “why they trigger you.“

These may be a few things that just begin building up in you over time. We tell ourselves we let it go, consciously. It’s one thing to just tell ourselves “I’m over it. I don’t care anymore. I’m good.” Our subconsious, our soul, feels otherwise. But, then you’re suddenly triggered. You have strong emotions toward certain types of people, or situations, that remind you of your pain, your past. Being triggered is an indication that you have not truly healed that part of you. You have not forgiven and truly accepted it for what it is. It still bothers you. You expect something more. A closure. Sometimes we think by forgiving someone or something that it is condoning the behavior done to us. We, our ego self, tends to correlate forgiveness as weakness or cowardly especially when we did nothing wrong. We didn’t do the act. But, learning to forgive without an apology or a sense of closure is strength. It’s finding our own courage and giving ourselves love, compassion and grace by forgiving and giving ourselves closure and a sense of peace in our hearts. It’s choosing to put our own sanity and health before anyone else. Don’t let that hate or anger or negative energies consume you more than they already have. Don’t let them win. Find your freedom. You deserve it! Be real and honest with yourself. You may be realizing more and more as of late how you’re acting out of character or being triggered more than usual. You found this post for a reason. It’s your spirit guides leading you. Putting people (healers, messengers, oracles), like myself, in your path to reach your soul. To initiate this healing path. To help you find your salvation.

There’s a lot of heart chakra healing that needs to be done. Negative energies within the heart center that may stem from as far back to childhood. Things you experienced with parents or other adults in your life. You may have troubles with relationships in your life. You’ve learned various coping strategies from the time you encountered your first betrayal or lie. Trust issues? Codependent issues? Fear of abandonment? Fear of rejection? Self esteem or self worth issues? 🙋🏽‍♀️ Yeah, hi, that was me, too. It has been years of hard work and dedication on working through all this. But, forgiveness. That was where I had to start. Letting go. Accepting my own faults in things, too. We all have our own faults, come on. Take accountability. We are human. We fuck up. We learn from errors though. We should anyway. Some just like to play the victimization role or the finger pointing role. That’s not going to get you to the life you want. You want peace. You want happiness. You want love. You want healthy relationships. You want passion. You want success. You want the good things in life. You are tired of having to stay afloat and having meaningless or toxic relationships. You are realizing life is passing you by and you may feel like you’ve accomplished nothing. You had dreams and aspirations that fell flat. This epiphany hit you hard. This post may be the start of something great in your life. Really seek help from therapists, counselors, or spiritual advisors or life coaches to help you pinpoint things for you. To help give you guidance on healthier coping strategies and changing your behaviors for long term benefits. Raise your vibration! Research spiritual awakenings. This is yours! Let those burdens go! I am being guided to tell you that some of you out there may benefit from a medium reading to gain the closure you need from someone that has passed on. There’s guilt you carry. This will allow you to forgive yourself too. This also reminds me to say that along with forgiving others that have wronged us, we must also learn to forgive ourselves. Forgive your failures, your wrongdoings, your mistreatment of your mind, body and soul (What you eat, drink, smoke, tell yourself, do to yourself). I had to do a lot of that myself. It’s hard admitting to a lot

of it. You get through it though. Allow yourself to feel what you feel. Don’t be ashamed in what you feel. Let the emotions out. It takes time to make everlasting changes in ourselves. Learning to implement the new strategies and changing how we perceive or respond to things. Integrating into life as a “new being“ is uncomfortable at first. It takes time to master that. But, stick with it.

It has taken me years to master this. To be very self aware of my triggers and how I react or respond. I had very unhealthy coping strategies. I wasn’t aware some of the things I did were coping strategies lol Like, my passive aggressive posts when I was trying to get someone’s attention. Or posting on social media my social outings to make someone mad or jealous. Or drinking and doing reckless things. Or eating sugars and carbs when stressed or depressed about something. Anyway, I’m sure you have your own or some of the same coping mechanisms. Heal your heart. Do the work. You deserve better. You are worth more. Don’t be afraid to ask for help or advice. Find someone you trust and vibe with to share your story with and get the heart healing you need. It’s never too late to start anew! Our relationships, romantic and platonic, will improve when we do our part on ourselves. That stable relationship you want will come when you heal and reach a higher vibrational level. As you let go of the negative energies weighing you down, you raise your vibration. We can’t be responsible for anyone else, but ourselves. Change starts with you. Forgive! The past is the past. Leave it there. Accept it for what it is. The past can not be changed, it’s done. BUT, you can change the now and the future. Change the way these triggers affect you. Change the way you react. Learn to respond. Learn to see how every negative experience is a stepping stone to a more resilient you! You can rise up and do better! YOU deserve it! Release yourself from those invisible chains and take back your power!