To Love Fiercely: The Power of Love, Grief, and Soulmate Connections

When I started diving into the Egyptian myths of the Goddess Isis, I was feeling so many emotions upon hearing the love story of Isis and Osiris. I had never known this story before. As a kid, I remember always being drawn to Egyptian history, but something kept me away from it. It was a strange relationship I had with Egyptian culture and history. Perhaps it’s connected to a past life there? The entire culture always piqued my interest. I used to watch documentaries about Egyptian pharaohs, the pyramids, and the mummification process—fascinating stuff. I wear cat-eye eyeliner, and I used to love wearing gold jewelry, so I think I definitely had a past life in Egypt. In fact, during a past life regression a few years ago, I saw myself there.

Anyway, as I read the love story of Osiris and Isis, I felt this powerful connection to Isis. Maybe that’s why I had never read it before—I needed to go through my own similar life lessons, just as Isis did, so that I could truly understand her journey. I was overwhelmed with empathy for the Goddess. I could feel her pain, her anger, and her desperation to bring Osiris back to life. I saw many parallels to my own love story that I went through years ago. I understood her grief. Grief is a powerful emotion, one that can break you or make you stronger.

I had never known love until 10 years ago. I mean, love beyond family, of course. Everything I knew about love was rewritten when I met him. We met in the most unexpected way, at the most unexpected time, and under the most unfortunate circumstances. I won’t go into all the details here (you can read more about it in my previous blog post I did), but when I first saw him, there was this instant knowing. He was like a magnet to me. I felt an undeniable familiarity. I remember thinking to myself, “Oh, he’s going to be trouble.” I tried to resist his advances, telling myself it was just harmless flirtation. But somewhere along the way, I fell. I couldn’t help what I felt.

I even tried to walk away, but I couldn’t. I started having dreams about him. I couldn’t stop thinking about him. I felt like we had unfinished business, like there was something we were meant to do together. And boy, was I right. I was at a point in my life where I had sworn off love, deciding I would just focus on being happily single for the rest of my life and travel the world. I had accepted that it just wasn’t meant to be for me. I told myself I was content with becoming an aunt and never having children. But then, there he was—my soulmate. One of them, anyway, I would later learn. That’s why he felt so familiar. We had met in another lifetime, and we had unfinished business. I came to realize that’s why we had to meet in this lifetime. I loved him so fiercely, and I never knew love could be that powerful.

Then, as quickly as it had begun, it ended. And in the wake of losing him, I felt as though a piece of me had died. The grief was overwhelming. The pain of losing someone who felt like the other half of my soul was something I couldn’t explain. I began to lose myself in my sorrow, questioning everything and everyone around me. In my darkest moments, I thought I couldn’t go on without him. There were times I considered leaving it all behind, believing that I would never find peace or purpose again. The pain of losing him seemed unbearable.

But something began to shift in me during that time. Just as I was drowning in grief, the spiritual realm began to awaken in me. My psychic and medium abilities began to heighten. Paranormal experiences started to happen around me, and I couldn’t explain what was happening. I felt as if I was going crazy. I was grieving, but I was also being called to step into something bigger, something I had long been hiding from.

As I began to process my grief, I had a past life regression that revealed the source of my deep connection to him. It wasn’t in Egypt, as I had originally thought, but during a time of war. He was a soldier, and I was a nurse. In that lifetime, I was his caretaker, and in this one, I was his physical therapist assistant. We had unfinished business, and my soul had been carrying the weight of that lifetime ever since.

In that past life, after his death, I pined for him endlessly. I never married or found another love. I lived a long, lonely life. I carried that loss with me until my dying day. In this lifetime, I am working to rectify that, to complete the unfinished business and find healing. That’s why he and I met again this time around. He’s been my guiding light, a force from beyond that helps me in my human life to fulfill my purpose and align with my twin flame.

Have you ever loved so fiercely? So deeply? To the point where you would want to use magick to bring them back or join them? To lose yourself in that love? I loved him with every fiber of my being, so much so that the idea of life without him seemed impossible. At times, I wanted to be with him so badly that I entertained the idea of calling upon forces beyond me, hoping for a way to reunite, to stop the agony of being apart. Grief can distort our perceptions and make us believe that without them, we are incomplete. It takes everything in you just to keep breathing through the pain.

Just like Isis’s transformation after Osiris’s death, my own journey has been one of painful growth and awakening. In the myth, Isis’s grief was immense, but through her sorrow, she began a journey of spiritual growth. Her quest to resurrect Osiris mirrored her own personal transformation—moving from despair to power, from mourning to creation. Through her trials, she became the embodiment of wisdom, magic, and motherhood. She rose from the depths of grief to become a goddess in her own right.

Isis’s story is a beautiful mirror to my own journey. After losing my soulmate, I was forced to confront my grief, my doubts, and my fears. But just as Isis found strength through her love and her pain, I found mine. The paranormal experiences and the psychic abilities I began to develop were symbolic of this transformation. Like Isis, I had to step into my own power, confront my deepest fears, and trust in the process, even when it felt unbearable. In doing so, I became more connected to my purpose, and I understood that love, in all its forms, is a powerful force for transformation.

As I embrace my spiritual gifts, I feel the presence of Isis in my life more than ever. She has become a guiding force, a protector, and a teacher on my journey. Her energy surrounds me, and I call upon her wisdom and strength to help me navigate this life. I feel her magic in my heart and soul, and I know that I am not alone in this journey. Hawks and kites have become symbols of her presence in my life, and they often visit me, as if to remind me that she is watching over me, guiding me through the darkness. In my grief, I have learned to embrace her energy, to trust her protection, and to allow her to lead me toward healing.

Another pivotal moment on my journey was when I went to my first psychic medium. That experience solidified my own abilities and opened a doorway to deeper understanding. The medium’s insight confirmed what I had been feeling for so long—that my gifts were real and needed to be embraced. It was during this time of profound grief that I began to understand the extent of my own spiritual power. This reading didn’t just provide comfort in the form of messages from the other side; it ignited a flame within me to step into my calling. I began to trust my intuition more deeply and allowed myself to explore the psychic gifts I had been reluctant to acknowledge. This connection with my own abilities has been a vital part of my healing and growth, helping me understand the spiritual lessons embedded in my grief.

Grief, though devastating, can be a powerful catalyst for spiritual growth. Just as Isis was able to transform her sorrow into strength and wisdom, so too can you. Embrace your grief, trust the process, and know that love—whether in this life or beyond—is a powerful force that can help you heal and transform.

Navigating Grief and Love

If you are facing grief from a deep loss, you may feel like you are drowning in it, unable to see a way out. It can feel as if you’ll never be whole again, or that you’re losing your mind as you try to make sense of the emotions flooding your heart and soul.

Here are some ways to navigate grief while honoring the love that continues to shape your journey:

1. Acknowledge Your Grief: Grief is not something you can simply push away. Allow yourself to feel it fully, whether it’s anger, sadness, or confusion. Denying your grief only prolongs the pain. Give yourself permission to feel what you’re feeling without judgment.

2. Lean into Self-Compassion: Be kind to yourself. Grief is exhausting, and it can take a toll on your mind, body, and spirit. Practice self-care and offer yourself the same compassion you would give to a loved one who is suffering.

3. Allow Love to Transform You: While grief may feel like it’s breaking you, understand that love is a transformative force. Love has the power to heal, to guide, and to help you grow. Let the love you experienced become a foundation from which you build a new life.

4. Connect to the Spiritual Realm: If you’re feeling lost or disconnected, reach out to your spiritual support system. Whether that’s through prayer, meditation, or connecting with loved ones on the other side, know that you are not alone. Our loved ones are still with us, guiding us in unseen ways.

5. Give Yourself Time: There is no timeline for grief. It doesn’t follow a neat schedule. You might have days where you feel okay, and others where it’s overwhelming. Be patient with yourself. Healing is a journey, not a destination.

6. Seek Support: You don’t have to carry your grief alone. Reach out to friends, family, or a therapist to help you process your emotions and find ways to cope. Connecting with others who understand can help you feel seen and supported.

7. Embrace Your Own Gifts: Just as I discovered my own spiritual gifts during my grief, you may find that your own intuition or psychic abilities become heightened during times of loss. Don’t be afraid to explore these gifts. Trust that they can guide you, bring you comfort, and help you find deeper meaning in your grief.

8. Honor the Love You Shared: Remember that love, even after loss, doesn’t end. The bond you share with your loved one will remain with you, and in honoring that love, you can find peace. You may even find that this love connects you to your own spiritual gifts and guides you to a place of healing.

Grief is not something that can be fixed quickly, but it can be transformed. By embracing your love and your pain, and by seeking spiritual guidance, you can find strength, healing, and peace.

This is a more complete reflection on how grief, love, and your connection to the spiritual world can intertwine to guide you on your healing journey. I hope it resonates!